Sound of Muisc

Perspective.
It is a rare thing to have these days.
Especially ...if deep inside you .. you have a poet waiting for a rhyme.. a writer waiting for a plot ..an artist waiting for some angst ..and me.
Everyone who thought that Long Island Ice Tea's were spiked.....
Welcome to the real world. My world.
These days .. its getting hard for me to breathe.

I tell myself again and again that things will work out. That I've been at this same place over and over in my life. That I shouldnt question everything I did. That no matter what I feel now ..when I was 16, things were different and my choices had a 50:50 chance of bringing me here. That even if I was somewhere else - it would probably be as easy or as difficult depending on which angle I looked from.
That in the grand scheme of things - I've always been a happy soul.

But I still question everything. Everyday.
I've gone back as far as my 14th birthday and as forward as my 60th.
How many times can one person go over every single decision in a 30 year old life with scrutiny?
I gave up counting a while ago.

These days - nothing that anyone will do surprise me.
These are strange and difficult times.
Maybe the best of times. Maybe the worst of times. Time as usual will tell.
Meanwhile - Life may not always be fair and kind - but I hope that we find it in ourselves to be fair and kind to each other.
Amen