"Sometimes losing balance for love...is also part of leading a balanced life"
Eat Pray Love - Elizabeth Gilbert
2010 has certainly been a year to remember.
Its been a year of trying to achieve balance as usual and keeping up with the things and people I love in light of game altering life changes and building new relationships and foundations and happiness.
And now as the year starts waning - I slowly find the scales of my world tip to a reasonable pace and place.
Much Metta.
Its weitd to see myself change - in thought process, ideology and heart - in slow motion.
It makes me more humble, grateful and aware.
Kind of like when you are in a place and time - and you clearly know as a person that right here and right now - you are making a memory - or that something life altering is happening.
Its a little bit like having a dream I would say.
Like I'm watching it - and smiling. Sometimes in my own skin..sometimes a stranger.
Change.
Time and the hands of fate have changed a lot of things - but I find myself making changes too.
They say that what we think is significant change is a process where we just more clearly become ourselves.
It makes me a bit weak in the knees to think about my life like that. It makes me pray and be self critical a lot more than I can handle somedays ..thesedays..
I guess ..All I can do - is hug the change silly and be still and remember that my mind and my body is where I live.
Its my house and I must care for it - physically and mentally. ..even when things change ..pace changes..life changes...
And after doing my best to do that .. if I can still have some time to spare and words to write ..like today .. then all I really should be saying .. is "Thank you"!
I'm Kaumudi Oak
I'm 31 years old and my city is Mumbai.
Thank God - I have enough.
