2007 started for me in Evanston, IL.
It had been a crazy rush to send B school applications out and I had finally wrapped up the entire process. It was a cold chilly night, like none other I'd seen before.
It was brutal, the icy wind sweeping across Lake Michigan, meandering through Kellogg's imposing campus and making its cold way to ruffle my hair.
I knew it was the wind of change.
I remember feeling this nervous excited feeling because at that point, everything in my life was fair game. And I wondered if the year would end as suddenly as it had begun.
If it would end on a happy note or a wistful one.
Would I move back home or would I choose to stay back? And if I did - would it wreck me or delight me ? Would I fall in love ? Would I be a good friend, a good daughter? Would I look forward to the new year ? Would I look back in surprise or regret? What would I do to change my life this year?
So many questions. Very few answers. 007 was exactly like the new bond film. It definitely had its ups and OMG! did it have its downs. There was drama, action, heartbreak, camaraderie and everything you would possible expect. More like an AXN movie and less like a LIFESTYLE flick :) No intervals. No commercial breaks. Only a mass build up towards an expected mellow ending. And what an ending its turned out to be.
I've been in India for 9 months now. 9 months and a light year or two.
Not a day has passed in these 9 months that I haven't woken up in the morning with Atlanta being the first thing on my mind.
Everyday of these past 9 months, I've gone to bed thinking about Atlanta.
And after months of wondering I know why.
Its because I struggled to make my life in Atlanta. I worked brutal hours and I went home alone night after night talking to the silence until it finally spoke back to me.
And one day .. I shall enjoy my post ISB life in the same passionate cant bear to live without manner. After the heartache is over - after I have earned the right to love it so.
Until then - I will wonder.
So that and more here are the things that I learnt in 2007...the hard way. The road less travelled way.
I've learnt that ..
1. Friendship is a lot of hard work. Some friends are purely context dependent...and when you change the context - you realise how fragile some bonds are. And yet just when you are disappointed, there are other relationships that will surprise you.
If you allow yourself to be surprised.
2. Life is kinder than most of us attribute it to be.
3. Running is therapeutic. Sometimes running towards and sometimes running away from.
4. Sometimes the only way out of a situation is through it.
5. Chocolate helps. Immensely.
6. In the end .. its me and the Universe. Nothing else matters. Zero Sum Game.
7. I have a choice and a responsibility. Even when I have power. And I must find it in myself not to abuse it. And likewise - when I hand over the power to someone else ..the power to take a decision that can change my world, I owe it to myself to be rational and expect the same in return. Deal or No deal.
And if I dont find that - Walk away. Even better - Run.
8. If someone makes me cry they are usually not worth the tears.
9. There are people in our lives who will treat us like Van Gogh. Wont appreciate us while we are around. Lol...walk away again.
10. All is takes is one phonecall that asks you how your day was - to make the day drastically better. Thank You Faiza.
11. Just looking at french fries makes me feel heavier.
12. The reason to wake up in the morning is that the world could change today. And usually every 24 hours - it does.
13. There is a Beatles song for every situation in my life.
14. Wearing pink nailpaint helps.
15. Like someone said - almost everything I did this year was easier to get into than to get out of.
16. I'm blessed beyond measure. Like someone pointed out - amazing things happen to me all the time, my life changes every other day and each day brings the "best thing ever" ..and I would not have it any other way.
So from my end - Goodbye 2007.
You rocked my world. But all good things must come to an end.
I am ready for the world to change again. In 365 ways. A day at a time.
Life shall go on :)
It had been a crazy rush to send B school applications out and I had finally wrapped up the entire process. It was a cold chilly night, like none other I'd seen before.
It was brutal, the icy wind sweeping across Lake Michigan, meandering through Kellogg's imposing campus and making its cold way to ruffle my hair.
I knew it was the wind of change.
I remember feeling this nervous excited feeling because at that point, everything in my life was fair game. And I wondered if the year would end as suddenly as it had begun.
If it would end on a happy note or a wistful one.
Would I move back home or would I choose to stay back? And if I did - would it wreck me or delight me ? Would I fall in love ? Would I be a good friend, a good daughter? Would I look forward to the new year ? Would I look back in surprise or regret? What would I do to change my life this year?
So many questions. Very few answers. 007 was exactly like the new bond film. It definitely had its ups and OMG! did it have its downs. There was drama, action, heartbreak, camaraderie and everything you would possible expect. More like an AXN movie and less like a LIFESTYLE flick :) No intervals. No commercial breaks. Only a mass build up towards an expected mellow ending. And what an ending its turned out to be.
I've been in India for 9 months now. 9 months and a light year or two.
Not a day has passed in these 9 months that I haven't woken up in the morning with Atlanta being the first thing on my mind.
Everyday of these past 9 months, I've gone to bed thinking about Atlanta.
And after months of wondering I know why.
Its because I struggled to make my life in Atlanta. I worked brutal hours and I went home alone night after night talking to the silence until it finally spoke back to me.
And one day .. I shall enjoy my post ISB life in the same passionate cant bear to live without manner. After the heartache is over - after I have earned the right to love it so.
Until then - I will wonder.
So that and more here are the things that I learnt in 2007...the hard way. The road less travelled way.
I've learnt that ..
1. Friendship is a lot of hard work. Some friends are purely context dependent...and when you change the context - you realise how fragile some bonds are. And yet just when you are disappointed, there are other relationships that will surprise you.
If you allow yourself to be surprised.
2. Life is kinder than most of us attribute it to be.
3. Running is therapeutic. Sometimes running towards and sometimes running away from.
4. Sometimes the only way out of a situation is through it.
5. Chocolate helps. Immensely.
6. In the end .. its me and the Universe. Nothing else matters. Zero Sum Game.
7. I have a choice and a responsibility. Even when I have power. And I must find it in myself not to abuse it. And likewise - when I hand over the power to someone else ..the power to take a decision that can change my world, I owe it to myself to be rational and expect the same in return. Deal or No deal.
And if I dont find that - Walk away. Even better - Run.
8. If someone makes me cry they are usually not worth the tears.
9. There are people in our lives who will treat us like Van Gogh. Wont appreciate us while we are around. Lol...walk away again.
10. All is takes is one phonecall that asks you how your day was - to make the day drastically better. Thank You Faiza.
11. Just looking at french fries makes me feel heavier.
12. The reason to wake up in the morning is that the world could change today. And usually every 24 hours - it does.
13. There is a Beatles song for every situation in my life.
14. Wearing pink nailpaint helps.
15. Like someone said - almost everything I did this year was easier to get into than to get out of.
16. I'm blessed beyond measure. Like someone pointed out - amazing things happen to me all the time, my life changes every other day and each day brings the "best thing ever" ..and I would not have it any other way.
So from my end - Goodbye 2007.
You rocked my world. But all good things must come to an end.
I am ready for the world to change again. In 365 ways. A day at a time.
Life shall go on :)
2 comments:
on friendship
http://sambhavnaye.blogspot.com/2007/12/dosti.html
Keep writing.
Cheers!!
Trust an authoress to know the sweetest way to toast a friend. I always knew 8 was a lucky number for me. :)
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