Quayamat

I've learnt the hard way that when I'm on the side of the majority - its time to take a step back and reconsider .
I guess as humans it is so easy to get carried away with mass opinion and ignore the fact that the other side has a story to ..or that the other side even has a story .
Some lessons I guess are easier to learn than others .
Is is possible to fight an ideology with weapons?
Is it possible to fight an ideology with anything other than a more gripping moving pivotal ideology ?
Is it possible to impose change through anything external ..anything other than a change in a thought process that ultimately translates to a change in actions ?
What consitutes a change of heart? ..why do people even say that ..is that change of heart driven by a change of mind ..or is it the other way round ?

The grey areas are always the hardest to navigate . Its easy to have extreme opinions ..and I'm the first one to perpetuate the theory that people who dont stand for something will most often fall for nothing . ..and more often that not ..I'll be the first one to have an opinion ..I've always considered it a gift ..to know what and who I stand for and who I will fall for ..die for. But in recent times that too has changed .
I find my internal scales finding it hard to tip one way or the other .
They say that as we grow older we see more things and this knowledge should empower us with the will to decide ..to choose ..to opine ..But these are indeed strange and difficult times .

Sometimes I wonder if other people my age , feel as confused and helpless as I do ..what is my purpose ?
in the greater scheme of things ? ..and what change do I bring about in the world ? ..a nameless faceless person ....why did I get put onto the planet ..was I part of a great plan ? Has it already unfolded or is it in the making ? ..helpless that things seem so banal and normal in my world while lives change , shatter and scatter forever elsewhere....Richard Bach once said that you spend your entire life so far trying to become who you are ..Was it worth it ? ...was it ?

This is the challenge and the war of our generation - one that will ultimately be fought in the mind and won through the heart .
God -I hope we choose well.