Hungry Tide

I once read that expecting the world to treat you fairly because you do - was like expecting a raging bull to not attack you because you are a vegetarian. Today - I am dealing with something that did not happen as per my expectations and trying to overcome the usual sense of stupity and disaapointment that usually accompanies such prolific moments.
I have been told on more than one occasion that I must learn to have realistic expectations from life - else I will end up getting hurt as I often do. This weekend's snafu notwithstanding.
I have tried. More than one good faith attempt has been well spent in the pursuit of maintaining this morbid reality check like balance.
I always fail.
Inside my heart - I just cannot fathom why on earth would I have low expectations from anything/anyone...myself included.
Why - so that I dont end up with scratches on my knees or a broken heart...?
So I should always expect people and situations to be average and experiences to be ordinary - and that way, I'll be whole and hearty while my life resembles this wonderful cookie cutter moulded existence where nothing unreal, unexpected happens.
Is it worth it ?
Frankly, my dear - in the words of the famous Rhett Butler - I dont give a damn.
Have you ever woken up at 5 am and looked into the eyes of the rising sun ?
You'll understand what I mean when you have or will.
The first time I did - I was 18 and on a mountain top in Kareri Lake - a glacier in the Gharwhals.
It changed my soul.
You just cannot be a witness to such unspolit beauty - flames of orange and crimson lighting up the lives of the world -
and expect the day to be ordinary!
The sun rises everyday.
And brings with it - the power of possibility.
The possibility that life will change, people will turn a leaf, That I will surpass a fear or climb a mountain - inside my mind but nonetheless. And that surprisngly - the day will be everything I wanted it to be and then some more.
However stacked the odds might be.
So screw the mundane and the menial and the mantra for living life with a standby saftey net.
Life ho to big ho !
And even though I am reeling under this onslaught of having put my faith in the wrong place again - deep in my heart I am hoping ..however improbable it may seem .. that..
Maybe, Today is the day the tide will change.