Whatever

a million tears
pep talk
lying to myself
optimism
2 packets of cheetos
strings
deep breaths
trying to avoid looking into the mirror
oreo bream brownie
doodling
staring blankly at the screen
taking the long way home
crying in the shower
making a thousand promises
shaking my head in frustration
avoiding phonecalls
two glasses of milk and cookies
opening the windows
searching for the moonlight
trying to switch my mind off
typing this out

Whatever ..gets me through today .
Tommorrow , I will wake up and try again .