Circuit Day

These days my gym trips have taken a turn for the unknown.

My trainer has me in agony by putting me through what's called a circuit workout once a week.

Where I excercise every part of the body without discrimination.

None of the "Thursdays are meant for Ugly Betty at 9 so let me just do triceps today really quickly while no ones watching .." thing..

When I train on the circuit - theres no retreat, no surrender.

Just me and the weights. Its a knockout even before the fight has begun.

Last night, as I tried to reason with my throbbing muscles - I realized that somedays..life felt like a circuit workout too .. where nothing was spared.. nothing was left to reason or doubt.

Days when I was going down - freefalling, out of control ..slave to some morbid external force.

Circuit Days when several things attacked me at the same time ... Work..friends..home..health..hair.weather..traffic..food...past..present..future and anything and everything that I touch turned to stone.

Whatever was in the path of the storm was left in shambles.

A circuit day.

Where my 24 hour cosmic karma would be so messed up that the only thing I could do was take deep breaths, let the clock tick and the karmacola fizz over.

Then when I got up the next morning - I could look at the half filled karmacola bottle and decide whether it was half empty or half full depending on which side of the bed I got up from of course.

The thing is .. that I'm not entired convinced that this is such a bad thing.

The thing is that inspite of the pain and the agony of going down and crawling painfully through the tunnel to light the light myself ....a circuit day every once in a while..helps me understand what makes sense when absolutely nothing else does.

A circuit day - much like a circuit workout helps me understand whats the "Freeze Feature" in my little world that holds the threads of hope in my life together in a weird shaky cross-stich.

And this is what I hold on to and fight to preserve on the remaining days when I choose the battles instead of them choosing me.

Amen.