Every once in a while, I have days when I just dont want to get out of bed.
When my alarm rings - all I want to do is pull the sheets back over my head and drift away.
In 2009, almost every other day has been like this.
But I still have to get up, face my demons and battle with them until another day comes to an end.
Some days last much longer than others.
But they always come to an end.
Even the longest, hardest, most excruciating day - lasts only 24 hours.
Whats interesting is - what I usually get to tell myself at the end of the day and at the start of the next one.
Its usually a combination of many things.
That I should take things one day at a time ... but when the whole year passes like that .. I think I shoulkd change this to - one year at a time :)
That things have to get much worse before the usually get better.
That I'm being a selfish ass and seeing only the things that are not working and ignoring the things that are.
That things are going to change.
That I should try and preserve my optimism - and not waste it on some random year that surpassed all years in its nothingness.
That I should breathe in and breathe out and just put one step ahead of the other.
Its always a toss up.
One of them usually does the trick and gets me going.
And then - there are days like today, when I just dont see a reason. To get up...and battle.
But I still do.
Beacuse that reason is out there somewhere - and if I dont find it today.
That will be the reason - I get up and get going tomorrow.
I'm 31 years old, and my city is Mumbai
Thank God, I have enough.
