Pannas Paise

I have faith in Britney Spears.
No matter what the newspapers publish about her - I have faith in her.
Maybe I'm just a sucker - without a grip on reality.
But I believe in you Britney Baby!
I think she will be able to turn her life around - slowly and stick her tongue out at everyone who lashed
at her.
I like stealing pens and shampoo bottles from hotels that I live in.
I keep the pens until they die out and the shampoo until it ends and it makes
me feel like a million bucks to use them and recollect the happy memories.
Its stupid - but it makes every vacation last longer - atleast in my mind.
I am trying to break a habit that is proving to be hard as hell.
I dont untie my shoe laces before I get out of my sneakers.
I've been trying to untie them - past few weeks ..and its maddeningly difficult.
I cannot eat Italian food with just anybody.
There is something incredibly personal about saying Tiramisu to someone I dont know.
Gnocchi and Rissotto only taste as only half as enjoyable as the people that surround them.
Which means - for anything italian to sweep me off my feet, I ought to have enjoyed the company twice as much!
And I love it when that happens - like this past monday night.
I have a thing for compasses.
I would love to have the exact sense of direction they do.
I would love to find my true north.
I would love to have Captain Jack Sparrow's compass.
The only problem with that - is that the compass only points to what you truly love/want/seek.
It does not ensure you will get it. And I dont think that is going to fix my problems.
I am an optimist.
No matter what happens.
I know things will get better.
And when they dont - I've learnt to just get on with the program.
I grade my life on a curve ..and maybe I'm a loser for it ..
but it helps me sleep better at night. And thats something. Maybe not everything - but something.
Any given point it time - I can think of atleast one thing that makes me smile.
I dont have many answers.
And I am looking forward to meeting people and having experiences that will change my life madly.
One days like today - I may say vague things - but I have a clear head and its great to be young and feel young and feel like my life has just begun.
And I can hardly wait for the phone to ring, or a mail to arrive or the day to end or this moment to pass.
Its a Gift.
And its my Present and I can only promise to cherish it and celebrate it and be thankful for it.
Amen.