Aaaj Idhaar Abhi

Time is running - Its two steps ahead of me on the treadmill and otherwise.
I want to be like water - flow through the cracks and fill everything up..so there are no empty spaces. I''m in love. Madly. Deeply. Crazily. With Life.

I am here because of every twisted road, every wrong turn, every second guess that I made in my life. And I find that I am in the place that I need to be in the most.

In April - I moved into this very room - but 6 months later what I see outside the window is very different. I've seen the trees outside shiver in the rains,quiver in the sunshine and glisten in the moonlight. They are my friends. And I've stood under them talking to me other friends. Empty Courtyards scare me no more- there are but remnants of happy memories and laughter.
When the sun shines through the curtains- I want to shout back at him! And when I go to bed at night - I am tempted to keep waking myself up and saying - no its not a dream. Its real. Not it wasnt easy. But I'm glad I did it. Yes I have scars. I'll wear them like medals.

Have you ever been at the point where you are so happy its almost scary - because you keep wondering ke what if sadness is around the corner. I'm at that point and more.
Every moment is a prayer,a gift, a love story and a lifetime.

I dont know if this is the best of times or the worst of times. But like all good literature says - Its the only freaking time I've got. So I've got a mission. I want to dance. And I want to sing in the bathroom too. I want to paint my toenails blue and do the mexican wave. I want to light candles and blow them out just to see whispers of smoke where my wishes were. I want to dance in the rain and blow soap bubbles.

I know the secret.
Life my friends - is free.
And I am Free Falling.
Amen !