Just Do it

"Just do it" stopped being a NIKE usp a while ago.
Its a mantra , a self confesssed obession and an imposed way of life.
Averaging a few scarce hours of sleep each night, sitting across each other on worn out librray tables surrounded by coffee cups long gone cold, watching the day turn into night turn into midnight turn into yet another day.

Yet I keep waking up and yet I keep walking.
I "Just do it" .
I have a little black dress hanging in my closet. I look at it every morning and it makes me gag.
I have no clue when I am ever going to wear it. EVER. Its probably never going to see the inside of a nice restaurant. Not while it is on this campus anyways.
Just like my sneakers that havent seen the inside of a gym in months.
Or the blog that waits relentlessly for me to overcome my cynical writers block so I can pen a few.
Or my mirror who longs to talk to someone, I dont look at it anymore because I dont like what looks back.
Or my best friend who patiently hangs up everytime I say I am too busy with my life to bother.
The dozens of emails I put off writing.
The canvas that is waiting for me to pick up a brush. It is going to be a Miguel Dominguez when it happens.

But I;m too dazed. Getting from point A to point B.
Convincing myself that tomorrow will be better than today.
That all the tears that I cry will be worth it.
That the kind of strength that is in my bones is not going to come from winning but from days like today that I have somehow managed to get the better off.
Convince myself that somehwere between the crack of dawn and the whip of midnight - there is meaning.
That one of these days - its going to mean something worthwhile.
That the good guy always wins.
That there eventually will be a minute more forgiving than the one that just went by.
That I will keep on walking up the winding steps of faith and somewhere on the map of my world - it will make a difference.
And so I hold on to the madness and the caffeine bursts and the overdoses of reality
and pray for strength and honor and I know that it is going to take a lot of sweat and knock outs - but I somehow , I have to be strong and "just do it" !